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I have a lot of things on my mind. While I'm trying to write them in the most coherent way possible, I'd like to share some things I'm enjoying and thinking about (while redoubling my efforts at applying for jobs - so that I can become a useful contributing body in this society of bodies).

10. Youtubedoubler

My current favorite has to be this: Woman who claims to suffer from dystonia after getting flu shot & Walk it out Remix

9. Hello Kitty Psychology Test

8. Boogie Nights (1997)

7. Lectures online - Current top picks




Authenticity in Games & the Future - My title for the Jesse Schell lecture @ DICE 2010

6. Critical Thinking on the Web - This collection of online resources for critical thinking is top quality (based on the couple of links I've explored thus far).

5. Jeffrey Friedl's Exif Viewer - Check out EXIF information by entering img urls. (I wandered on to the viewer somehow... after looking at the ChatRoulette Map)



2. SoundCloud - I am having a lot of FUN with this!

1. Net Neutrality Debate - This has been a recent hot topic. I think these sources are good to look at when thinking about it.

The Internet in ALL its GLORY

I now present to you the best compilation of all the Youtube Videos that have sprung up.
My favorites are the auto-tune remix and the shamisen+beats version of the auto-tune remix.

ENJOY!!!!!!
Starting with....


Original interview of Antoine Dodson
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KJVwfJs8Eqo


Auto-tune remix
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hMtZfW2z9dw


Aftermath - Antoine's reactions to his internet fame. His sister must be pissed.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=924__gTH63g


Extended auto-tune remix
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mJpLiC2eSDc


Rap remix
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k4VJ2vPc5bU


Piano cover of auto-tune remix
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FSAYE3MJpb0


Acoustic version of auto-tune remix
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XFuc1xEx8Es


Ukulele version of auto-tune remix
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PxLPiY0b7Vk


Techno version of auto-tune remix
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4IZ-L36o9iM


Shamisen version of auto-tune remix
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=42E7lY1kYrM


shamisen+beats auto-tune remix
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DU-yt4Z_6ao


Country version of auto-tune remix
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gd_7P9U99LE


Beatbox auto-tune version
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QYHhkX0DWuM

There are countless videos of people singing to the video of the auto-tune remix... but until I find a really good one... Feel free to share!!!
1. Debris Culture

The word "debris" comes from the french word "débris," which is, itself, "" + "bris."
of that which has been broken off
And the internet is full of it.

Anything uploaded or posted, and I hesitate to call it "information," becomes debris. To call it "information" feels slightly disingenuous. The word connotates utilization, instruction. The idea of the internet as an information superhighway makes me feel cheated, because it's not exactly that. 

Most people would consider Wikipedia an information provider. And this consideration conveniently forgets that nothing on Wikipedia is formed, complete, finished. Anyone and everyone has an opportunity to change/add anything to any subject. Wikipedia does not contain information. It contains debris. Debris from the physical thing itself, the thing in the world. Debris might be informative but it is not information.

semantics, shemantics,
mind bending antics.
a rose. 
by any other name is still 
a rose. &. ke ke. 
is information 
always physical?

I don't want to arc. Rather, I'd like to point to the swirling debris that is the internet. Youtube. Facebook. Twitter. Reddit. Digg. Debris that can be broken down, referenced, recycled, reassembled, repackaged, commoditized, etc. etc.
* * *
2. Related

The above ramble, is obviously influenced by my reading of Convergence Culture by Henry Jenkins. It was an excellent read; especially after Adorno's sobering essays on the culture industry. It is a positive (and rightly so) outlook on the participatory and collaborative nature of new media and the consequences of the convergence of new and old media. 
&
really made me want to read Pierre Lévy
& continue looking at  the euze of Deleuze.

In the mean time, I've started on Illuminations: Essays and Reflections by Walter Benjamin (introduction by the ever-so-lovely Hannah Arendt).

Since I'm on Benjamin's essay, The Task of the Translator, I'll end with an excerpt from Stephane Mallarme's Crisis in Poetry, translated into English by Mary Ann Caws. (Note, it is tangentially related to my thoughts on "debris." I found it here. I would like to read the full essay though.)

      ". . . Each soul is a melody which must be picked up again, and the flute or the viola 
       of everyone exists for that.
       Late in coming, it seems to me, is the true condition or the possibility not just of 
       expressing oneself but of modulating oneself as one chooses.
       Languages are imperfect in that although there are many, the supreme one is lacking: 
       thinking is to write without accessories, or whispering, but since the immortal word is 
       still tacit, the diversity of tongues on the earth keeps everyone from uttering the word 
       which would be otherwise in one unique rendering, truth itself in its substance . . . 
       Only, we must realize, poetry would not exist; philosophically, verse makes up for 
       what languages lack, completely superior as it is."

I've reached a lull; a loll, an almost ...lol

The past two weeks have been an up and down roller-coasting to a flat line. I have been reading more so than in the past year thanks to my new Sony ereader, catching up on more Adorno, Bukowski, Ashberry, & periodicals. But while I'm catching up on literature, I am amazed at the written crappage all over the internets.

Take, for example, Gawker. Go to their website. Do it now (in another tab). Read an article (or post) and ask yourself, what makes this writing good? Let's take a look at the first post, "Body by Jesus." Embedded in the post is a video. Then you proceed to a horrible posturing introduction leading into... surprise! a QUOTE from the source of the video in question. And finally, a one liner conclusion which isn't even funny. What is this crap? A fifty word post devoid of any synthesis; a two second time waster.

Every post is a posturing. "Look at this!" with an ironic eyebrow raise; "look at me, I'm witty! I'm pointing to this 'news'!" That's it. Don't think! We don't need to think anymore! Just point and approve or disapprove, like or dislike.

I understand that Gawker or any of Gawker Media's subsidiary sites aren't supposed to be representative of good writing. These are blog posts meant to incite, meant to generate page views and links. The written words themselves should have no deeper meaning. They are functional and should only be evaluated on as such; whether or not the words are effective at procuring attention for the content (usually a commodity).

**GASP!!**

But maybe this is the way that language actually is and we have only been mislead into thinking that language is more than use (with winks to Witt). Are we witnessing a commoditization of language or the disentanglement of language from nonsense?

Sigh. Does anyone outside of the ivory towers care?

In terms of good writing, I want to point to an excellent review titled The Believer written by Ian Buruma in The New York Review of Books on Christopher Hitchen's Hitch-22 that gave my ab muscles a good work out. It is an example of what I term effective haterade.

I would like to end this blog post with a poem from Charles Bukowski's Betting on the Muse, titled "the sheep." (page 124-125)

"the sheep

in centuries past
audiences at symphony concerts
were not afraid to act out their
displeasure at works which
offended
them.

in our time
I have either attended or
listened to
hundreds of concerts
and never have I heard an
audience
express even the mildest displeasure
with any
work.

have our musical artists improved
to such an
extent?

or is it the decay of courage,
the inability of the
mass mind to
reach its own
decisions?

not only in the world of
music
but in the other
world?

the next time you hear
a symphony concert
note
the obedient applause,
the death of the bluebird,
the shading of the sun;
the hooves of the horses from
hell
pounding on the barren
ground
of the human
spirit."

Look at the fifth stanza
and gawk.
This past weekend, I went back to Long Island for my little brother's graduation from my high school. It is incredible how many years have passed... almost a decade... since I was also standing on the very same bleachers; except my brother being the senior class salutatorian, was comfortably sheltered from the high noon sun in the speakers' tent. 

The school has grown physically; adding two new wings and another floor over the past nine years. The character of its students and the community have remained the same though. As I sat with the parents and families, watching patiently, I thought about my time at the school.

I must have been such a strange kid... but kids are all strange, no? Unlike the rest of my peers, I was a relative new comer to the community. I never felt right, never felt like I fit in, socially or economically. It wasn't as if my peers did not tolerate my strangeness. In all fairness, we were amicable. Amongst the rest of the school population, I stood out because I wasn't into celebrities, tv, or the same music that most of the students listened to and I was slightly nerdier. Amongst my peers in my honors/ap classes, I never felt that I was dorky or nerdy enough. I didn't participate in the race for the best grades or test marks or honors. My classmates all grew up together, with their house parties and sweet 16s whereas I spent a lot of energy dealing with family problems. Sometimes I look back and resent their suburban psyches; the political apathy, the consumerism, the "which kid has it made, deservingly and undeservingly, why and why not" gossip... And sometimes I look back and marvel at what an opinionated asshole weirdo I must have seemed like to everyone else because I was so vehemently passionate about stating my differences. 


Sorry for the shitty caricature but that was me - unsolicited and in your face opinions. 

Thankfully, my little brother did not follow in my footsteps and kept his nose focused on academics. It is a good thing he will have life-long friends from high school.

I have at most one very close friend and lots of random friend-acquaintances from the community. It's a comforting thought to know that I have changed, and so has most people from then, for the better. And some times I wonder if friendships will rekindle when I go back for the tenth anniversary reunion next year. Will I find solidarity and community? HA HA HA Um... otherwise I will enjoy drinking that haterade, secretly laughing at which bastards got obese, who turned into losers, and which bitches got ugly from age and pregnancy, and multiple marriages.... you know, the typical juice that people find at high school reunions.



It is hot here in NYC. It's not as hot as I currently make it seem like, but that's because our AC is off due to apartment power outage concerns.

This week has been a boring one. I've been thinking about the May article in Poetry Magazine entitled This Land Is Our Land by David Biespiel. Basically, Biespiel laments the disengagement of modern poetry writers from the outside world. I would like to agree with him but after glancing responses on Poetry Magazine's website, I'm feeling conflicted.

I think I agree with Biespiel because I am disengaged from a community of writers and poets. Perhaps if I were to network, I'd come to learn more about other poets' non-poetical pursuits. I feel conflicted on this. Whenever I have attended poetry readings in NYC, I'm 90% of the time alone. While I'm not a shy person, I'm not exactly the most social either. I generally do not reach out to other poetry reading attendees. I suspect the reason I don't do this is because I must be terribly fearful of acquainting myself with other poets.

It is really silly of me. I know. But I'm intimidated by the theories and knowledge that I imagine other poets to have more than me; that I won't measure up some how; that I won't be able to speak eloquently on this or that poets' work; or they'll think my writing is non-poety. I'm a weirdo okay? And I'm afraid of rejection because, well... I'm a hater myself.

When it comes to writing, I like words. I like the certain visual shape, rhythm, mental image of the word. I like dwelling on a certain word all week because I'm charmed.

For example, "vinegared." When I first saw the word this past weekend in a poem, I read it as "Vine" and "Gared." And it amused me when I figured out that it was vinegared.

It amuses me so much I want to put into a poem. Soon.
I'm also amused by the word "liege" - as in the li-aege waffle. Ever since I had the liege waffle, the word makes me salivate. I want to put this word into a poem. I've been meaning to. But how can I do so without the word "waffle?" and have the word Liege create the same delicious feeling? Or maybe I will add "waffle" because "waffle" is also a very charming word.

But what about the ideas of the poem? Often I would like to express an intense feeling; something sharp, almost jarring. Something interesting. Provocative. But its difficult to be provocative now.

I'm pretty certain degreed poets and published poets use nicer words to describe their process. I'm afraid I won't connect. Well, one day. I guess.

I digress.

On another note. I have to say I really like Poetry Foundations iphone application. And it makes me wonder why there aren't more apps like it. I would also like to see real time collaboration applications for poets; omegle for poets, wave for poets? On the phone? So many ideas.
I am ashamed. The last entry was dated May 2009. One year and one month ago.
Good news though, what has been written in the past year have remained in my diary and laptop. Anyways, I'm here now.

I sh!t you not.
I started 2010 with a herniated L1-S1 disk.

Around February, I began to believe that it was hopeless. I would be crippled for life, unable to dance again or sneeze or cough without pain. After a month and half of physical therapy, continuing to go to the gym, taking some pilates classes, I've returned to 90% normal in the past two months. You have no idea what a humbling experience this has been. Maybe you do. On the positive side of this whole ordeal, I've lost all the weight I put on in the last year or so. :::awkward self-cheering:::

Half of 2010 has come & gone. I live in Manhattan with my lover & I have been job searching. I hope to have a work home soon. Deep inside, I honestly believe that I will find the right place to be, even if it takes a bit longer than I anticipated. Why on earth did I leave my previous position in the worst job market evAR? Because I want to. Because I can. It's about time I move on to something bigger and I'm confident that I have the skills and abilities to do it. I hope the nay sayers drink their haterade and haterage when I land it.

Still, I see my peers from school and do feel that pang of envy for what I interpret as stability or success in their lives. "I grow old. I grow old. / I shall wear the bottom of my trousers rolled." ::smile:: What is success anyways? I am happy, I am youthful, and I am loved. That is all.

I want to leave this thought, and perhaps I will elaborate in the next entry, that I discovered re-reading Minima Moralia by Adorno; passage #25 in which I found libidinous solace during this job hunt. I understand that what I'm taking from the passage is not wholly what he intended to express. My reading of it expresses my feelings towards my experience job hunting so far; having filled out already countless applications for positions.

"...Anything that is not reified, cannot be counted and measured, ceases to exist. Not satisfied with this, however, reification spreads to its own opposite, the life that cannot be directly actualized; anything that lives on merely as thought and recollection. For this a special rubric has been invented. It is called 'background' and appears on the questionnaire as an appendix, after sex, age, and profession. To complete its violation, life is dragged along on the triumphal automobile of united statisticians, and even the past is no longer safe from the present, whose remembrance of it consigns it a second time to oblivion."