I used to keep my xanga page and post every day to every couple days. I posted with excessive regularity and posted details that I wished I didn't. I posted my excitement of living.
Lets see, where am I...like OMG I'm still in NYC and yes I will post details that in a couple years I wish I didn't. Old habits die never.
The past months have yielded continuous frustration with everyone around me. Sometimes I feel especially lonely in my inability to tolerate lack of wit, or, more unpleasantly, dumb people. I wonder.. no, I know, I will always be surrounded by halfwits. Even back at school, during THOSE years. This lover (kid) I'm living with, sometimes he seems like one of them... only for me to later realize, he is a mirror, reflecting my own ignorance and intolerance back.
Its hard to eat dirt. Its hard to realize who you really are, even harder to forgive yourself for being it. I think its one of the most important lesson anyone can ever learn and cope with.
